If this is what 40 feels like, I am all in. Instead of fearing it and dwelling on regrets, let’s embrace 40 (and stop calling it the new 30s). Today, I am really a grown up. I feel like you have spent the last decades worrying too much about what other people think, what you want to do with your life, your career, finding ‘the one’, turning into your parents (which btw wouldn’t be that bad, because mine are badass), or comparing yourself to your friends or people on social media.
You know what, everyone has their own sh*t. You may think that all those people that looks so confident and whatnot, are just as screwed up as everyone else. It really is a waste of time comparing the worst of yourself with the of others.
You realize that the people in your life at 40 isn’t going anywhere, they love you unconditionally. They have your back, the once that don’t, you weeded out. You are done with all the drama. You learn not to take yourself too seriously. You can get your silly on again. I used to be a goofball, really, but throughout my late 20s and early 30s I thought that I had to grow up, now, I really just want to dance like no one is watching and sing like no one is listening (I am not good at either).
In my mind at 20 I had all these things I want to get the done by 40. I can tell you right now, I haven’t done most. I have accomplished a whole lot of other amazing stuff. And that is just as perfect, if not better. I feel happier than ever, I am ready to start learning new things again, and I am ready to tackle 40s head-on.
Now, I will enjoy the day and the weekend with Mr. LA and great friends in Joshua Tree, where I rented a very cool house (which I will share with you guys next week) for us all to spend time together, feast and laugh out loud till the early hours. Maybe even dance!